“ O.K., it’s 11 o’clock,
let me just watch some Seinfeild and then I’ll get
a good couple of hours in; I work better at night anyway.”
“ I know I haven’t worked
in awhile but I really should …get these bills done
…work on the house … spend some time with my
girlfriend … play with my dog …what’s
on t.v.?”
“ Don’t worry, this time
being wasted doesn’t really matter, the work will
always be there.”
“ Oh man, I’ve been laying on this couch since
when? How long can this routine possibly go on?”
I wish I could accept the easy answer and just consider
these as excuses but the truth is there is something more
to it than that. There must be another explanation to why
I allow myself to be distracted so easily.
This work is a drastic departure from my earlier theatrical
photographs. These black and white photos concentrate on
the simple images that have affected, developed and in some
ways haunted my thoughts ever since I decided to study art.
Simply put, the objects chosen have played a part in my
day to day life, and have now become symbols of that which
I have feared to address for all these years.
More important than the images themselves, and what makes
them so personal, is why I have decided to photograph them
now. Which brings me to the title of this series “Fear
and Uncertainty”.
These pictures try to investigate both the fear and uncertainty
that I go through when deciding what to make, or until this
point, what not to make. I realize this is certainly not
a new concept. There has been numerous books publish on
the psychology of what drives “artists” to work,
what they are trying to accomplish and what might be the
reasons they eventually stop working.
I guess you can say that this series of photographs has
gotten the “monkey off my back”. They speak
about all the judgment I put on my own work; normally used
as excuses to avoid producing anything.
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